Of New Years, Leap Years and New Beginnings

Well….

I know…. There has been a lot of interest since I started this blog about a year ago...

Lots of things were in my mind, waiting to be said to the outside world…

Three posts, and almost a year later, my perspective has slightly changed yet still, 

I do still want to say a lot of things that is deep inside my mind to a lot of people out there, but somehow the urge and the desire has somehow died down, a little too much, I’d say.

Going into my 2^nd year of my degree, and now in the second semester of it has certainly put me in a tight spot, especially when it comes to time management. With a lot going on in my mind, and a lot more happening around me, finding quite peaceful time for me to sit and write my heart out is almost impossible 

(I tried many times, a lot of word docs I typed, nothing was really up to standards.)

The good ol times when writing a long essay was an easy thing

Well, every year I have this thing of buying a new diary, and writing down each and everything that happens on a day to day basis. I would also be, you know, going back to all those who went M.I.A. over the years and wishing everyone happy new year. 

Somehow, this year I wanted to make a change. I didn’t do anything. Except for the diary part of course.Over the past 5 years since the end of 2011, I feel like my self-development has somewhat staled out. I know, I am no more the bubbly 17 year old; cheerful, youthful and directionless teenager.

NOOOOOO !!!!!

NO.

And yes, going through 2011 holding several important posts in clubs in school, and the 2 years of Form 6 of which was in a way dreadfully spent as the Head Prefect, supports the motion on the contrary of what I’ve been thinking of you might say.

Leadership was indeed a very lonely journey....

To be honest, I am not at where I wanted to be 

when I first had a dream of how should I be when Im 22.

No, not even half of what I had in mind. 

There was I envisioning myself as a person who is almost completing his degree, 

settling into a job soon, picked up many skills and mastered many more languages 

and back then the most important thing of all, spending time with my much beloved little girl and taking baby steps on planning the future and maybe like 5 years later, get married to the exact same person was high on the to do list..

A goal without a plan is just a wish

Now rewind that five dream years and fast forward five years in reality,
the envisioned plan seems to be that of a person very different from the person I am now.
Just halfway through my degree, nothing much personally developed,
an extreme amount of weight gained, a lot less friends around,
a lot less time spent doing the things I like the most (Football, cycling, badminton etc.. ), 

getting wayyyy quiet (not that I am shy or anything, just I don’t feel like saying anything.. 

I prefer to keep it to myself) and the little girl who is now estranged, to the extent that every
beginning of a distracted chat seems like a desperate attempt to get back together and is 

hence replied with a double blue tick on Whatsapp. Hmmmmm

This also usually happens when I try to get in touch with old friends

Okay refocusing to what I was wanting to say…Well no matter how much we try to deny…

“Change IS nature, 

the part we can influence. 

And it all starts when we decide”

-Ratatouille 

And well… This is something of a motivation to myself for this year.. 
5 years is a long down time, but I certainly believe its not too late
to bounce back high now that I know how low I can go.

5 Long Years

Sometimes we do things expecting them to turn out our way… 

The people we meet, the people we get close to and the people we love so madly…

But then, as time passes by…

Things change, 

and not everyone will be reminiscing the past
and remember every single thing and be grateful as you do..

Guess this five years has taught me one good valuable lesson…

Words are how we think, Stories are how we link.

but then again… as I always like to say… To me…

SOME MEMORIES ARE INDEED FOREVER…

This year will certainly be spent on self-development and moving on from the past.
I did away with doing the “new year new me” crap and the resolutions thingy…

I’d like to take things as they come… Never let a chance to develop myself go by… 

A Maze of Opportunities Waiting to be Discovered

THIS WILL BE THE MANTRA..

"Sometimes..
we grow bigger than our dreams...

and well... most of the times...

Dreams grow bigger than us.....

For one thing we should never stop doing...

Is having the courage
of dreaming much bigger dreams.... "

-Rct

#PulutFeels #PulutOfTheYear

So much to say... So little time.... 

Anyway...
I'll start updating this blog as frequent as possible starting this week.
Will update on FB. Stay Tuned. :)